can't tell my parents, so here goes

You know how your parents watch those dramas on TFC? Yeah, you know what I'm talking about. The ones they go crazy over. They make sure someone records it for them, they get so mad when you forget or when they don't get to watch it, and the ones they always cry to. THOSE dramas. They go totally lunatic over it. And when you're the same way about something on tv, they tell you that you're childish and shit even if they're doing the same thing. You get the picture. Anyways, you know how they also yell at the tv screen when one of the characters do something they don't like? "Oh my gaaahd! Don't go with him, salbahe siya ('He's bad' for you non-Tagalog speakers)!" Well yeah, they always seem to know what those characters should do and should not do. They know what the right decision is and when the characters are making a bad one. But when it comes to real life, they're as stupid as those characters they love to hate. They get together with people they shouldn't get together with and they endure everything because they "love that person" so much. BULLSHIT! don't give me that crap. I don't understand why they don't understand when someone is making their life miserable. Is it the Asian thing? The fact that many Asian want to save face and not look bad to other people? Especially relatives? But why the fuck does that matter? When it comes to your happiness, are you really willing to give it up just to look good? Jesus! Get over yourselves. If it ain't working, then LET IT THE FUCK GO. If you're miserable together and happy apart, it's not hard to decide where to go. Maybe it's because you want a partner to help pay bills/rent and so you can live out the rest of your life? Find someone BETTER. Someone who you won't fight with every other week. You preach harmony and togetherness in the house when the UNtogetherness starts with the two of you.

"Maybe you can help out by looking for a job?" I AM TRYING. I've applied to a lot of places. But it's kinda hard to find one because you know, the economy kinda sucks ass and no one really hiring. Plus I have to take into account where the job is since I have no car!

Maybe the source of all this is exactly that: the economy. Yeah, it sucks companies are shutting down, you're scared you will lose your job next, your children seem like they're not making an effort to find jobs to help support our "family". Just maybe. But you still preach family. So do just that. SUPPORT each other. Don't unleash your anger at each other because that won't make anything better. How long has it been? 3 years? That we've all been living under one roof? Almost 3 years you've been together? STOP FIGHTING! Stop being emo and sensitive about every little thing. You're worse than kids because you let something you can't control, fuck everything up. Understand I AM trying to find a job. I WANT TO HELP US GET THROUGH THE TOUGH TIMES. But hearing constant yelling and complaining every night doesn't actually boost my morale about us continuing into the future as a family. Let's all grit our teeth and grinf it out. Move FORWARD, don't push back. BE A FAMILY.